Why is my child a drug addict, why do they not care what they are doing to themselves,to me, their siblings, those that love them boyfriend girlfriend ect. WHY WHY WHY its a question that vibrates through your mind and out your mouth like a spoil child throwing a tempertantrum. It is a question that can never be answered b/c there is not a justifable answer that will make it ok for the things the drug addiction made you do and there really is no answer to why one begins to use . There are a lot of excuses and blame but no answers .
Why is the addiction so much more to you than your mom why did you let it destroy you answer meeee!! I have said those words throughout my sons addiction to him to the wall and to the few who knew the situation but there was no answer which makes it so much harder to dwell on the question.
I know the answer a little better now that he is in recovery and has almost 2 years of being clean but the answers still don’t stop the pain the question caused. I have always said if you don’t want the answer don’t ask the question but this is one of many questions that haunt me. Even with him being in recovery 2 years I still have the question why because recovery is only a daily stepping stone there is still so many days tat are rough and bad and you still think some of things that you did when they used . Watching a recovering addict struggle and overcome obstacles I still have the question WHY WHY WHY did this happen and my only answer is one night while out with his friends he chose to use a moments decision that changed his and everyone in his life forever . WHY WHY WHY